I never thought of myself as a scaredy cat kind of person. I like scary movies, I don't have to check under the bed for possible hiding people in hotel rooms (my husband), I am not afraid of my dark basement (Brian Jones), you get the idea. So recently I was faced with this fear thing, and it took me by surprise.
Last week some of our staff went on a retreat and Stephanie and I had the opportunity to go on a ropes course during some of our free time. It was a beautiful fall day up near the Poconos, the leaves were starting to change and there wasn't a breeze to be found. We get harnessed up and Stephanie takes off cruising through the course like she was part chimpanzee. So it's my turn, and I froze, completely scared out of my mind. I could no more take a step off that platform than I could lift a building. What was crazy about the experience was that the fear was completely unexpected. So I stood there frozen while a wrestling tournament was taking place in my mind. The logical side of my brain argued that my harness would hold me, the rope swing before me was something I had used a thousand times with my kids in the backyard, and Steph. was right in front of me cruising through the course with ease. The irrational side of my brain was arguing every reason that I would plunge to my death if I were to even think about stepping off that ledge.
Needless to say, with Stephanie's encouraging words (or the threat of telling my kids what a chicken I was if I didn't do it), I managed to take that first step. After that I was fine, the fear subsided and I made it through the course and was able to crash land like no other.
So the follow up left me thinking, what else scares me? Do I let fear stand in my way of doing things that would help me do my job better, be a better friend, wife, mother? I have to say, fear probably stops me from doing a lot of things that I'm unaware of. I am trying to be more in tune with that feeling and not let it keep me from accomplishing what God has set me out to do.
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
